Sorry I have been missing again. Let’s pretend I was on vacation in Hawaii…I could tell you what’s going on but I haven’t much energy today. I made this 4×6 mixed media postcard the other day when I realized all I ever do anymore is cry and moan and wish I was dead. I was in a car accident in September which was around the same time I found out I need to have knee surgery on both knees for torn meniscus’s. I was going to hold off until after my bariatric surgery but truth is I can hardly walk anymore and going up and downstairs is agony. The car accident caused another whiplash and I am still trying to heal from that while working part-time. I can not sit for long without my neck going numb. I can not look down or tilt my head forward without real discomfort. I have some very strong tape holding my neck straight that the PT placed on there today. It is supposed to keep me from doing the head tilt thing. It feels like the skin is too tight on my neck to move in any direction at all! No one wants to hear any of this…so I just cry instead cause everything is so overwhelming right now especially the pile of bills that keeps getting bigger and the fact that I can no longer binge on ice cream to dull the pain. I am not dealing very well with it at all. I’d slash my wrists but I can’t look down to see where to cut!